a little bit better I hope

I'm sorry but this will really be a messed up post. my feelings are so turned up side down at the moment and I don't know how to make things right. and now things really are a little bit out of control. I don't really know what to do with all this. I've thought about it a long time but I don't know how to make the decition. I don't want them to be hurt or to be angry. And I don't know how to tell them, I mean I haven't been sure for quite a long time. and It's not fare to let them be unconscious about it. I want to make the right decition, the wise and good one. no regrets afterwords. I want everything to be well again an not be how it is for the moment. but I really don't know what to do. maby I'll just decide one, flip a coin. but I think this needs a little bit more thought. oh this is so hard. If I choose one, the other one will be hurt. and then maybe the third one will be angry because... oh this is too messed up! I don't want it like this and yet I can't figure it out. I wish I never woke up this morning. this is so much out of control and I don't know how to handle it. I don't know what to do. I'm so sorry but I really don't know what to eat for breakfast!I really don't know!