like in a tornado

feels like everything just goes spinning and spinning. would like to have a button that don't says play. but I don't know where to buy one. now, time to be intellegent. to be organized. to be diciplined. to do your homework. I don't want to. are you alloud to not want to? or is that just a sign of laziness? would like to have a day just to be home watch a good movie. feels like every free time you feel guilty. guilty for doing something you should do on your free time and not studying. need to get this done. don't want to. can't we just forget all about it? well, I know it feels good when it's done BUT. well, time to just do it and hopefully everything will stop spinning...