feeling a little better now..

okay, the tiredness is starting to go away. slowly but still. starting to get both of my feet back on ground and my eyes open with a smile on my face. hard to get there hard to stay there. luckely I have to do nothing in my own. yesterday I continued to read a book by Adrian Plass. he made me think. think of god. think of me. think of the combination of those two. made me analyze my life. made me recognize myself in his experiences. made me feel like I'm not on my own feeling stupid and lost and selfish and egocentered and foolish and happy in your own bubble. weird that a person you've never met can feel so like yourself. I laugh because it's like he's written about my life. or I laugh because he has already made all those stupid things and thought they where the best things because he's in his bubble. and now I think the same. well, hard to explain but maby you will get some good out of it. ^^

got some good resting time yesterday. made a cup of tea, a big one in my "en kopp må bra"- (one cup feel good-) cup and listened to shawn mcdonald. just laying down on my bed with my purple plush-dress on and a nice blanket around your feet. Vilma was accompany me and we just sat there, or layed there. thinking. breathing. resting. golden moment. a pause. well needed. to get back on your feet. get yourself together. breathe.resting. take a pause. I start to feel a little bit better now.