weekend with sis and grandma

today I woke up and felt kind of tired. all my energy was used for skiing I think. ^^ anyway, I took a slow wake up knowing that my day was gonna be nice. My sister and I where going to Avesta and grandma. so now I'm sitting in the beautiful white room with the beautiful old furniture waiting for a nice dinner to be ready. just feel calm and happy about being here with people I love.

sis and I had our own adventure getting here though.. ^^ but finally we where on the train with a feeling of spontainous freedom and butterflys in our stommachs. nice. :) It's gonna be a nice ending of my februaryholiday, just soft and loveble. and I think I need it more than ever.

back home in one piece...

almost!
I had an amazing week with a lot of fun and now I'm tired and a little bit sore but luckely in one piece. well, I just wanna say thanks to you all who made this week memorable. now, time for breakfast!! :)

everything is about food... really!

just realized that my last three post had pictures of food, there's why the topic looks like it does. well, well... this might be the last post I'm writing. ever. until I'm back from Åre. *yey!!* we're going, the whole youthgroup from our and one other church in city is going to the biggest skiiresort in sweden and (niclas said so so it must be true ;) one of the top best most magnificent skiiresort in the world... or something like that :P I'm very excited and I hope it will be one of the best februarybreaks ever! :) and I think it will be :) bye, bye. Ida, Sandra and Bullis, hope you will have a nice break to with lots of ben&jerry's, movies and "pulka"! :)

"se upp i backen annars får ni tusen hål i nacken!!!! (I have no idea how I'm gonna translate that!? ;)

what if somethings could be a cake instead of just vegetables?

well, my day started out fine... went from fine to awful... went from awful to splendid and went from splendid to terrible... now I'm just sitting around, hopeing for my day to become nice.

my get-to-go food is waiting for the garbagebag and I'm waiting for a sunshine to come and light up my day... and I'm sooo hoping it's you! :)

and we got a new start....

well, I started to think that my design of the blog was starting to get a little bit christmasy...so I thought about spring and a new born idea poped up in my head. (my brain must have some life left..) but, later on.. I realized that the new design looks like mint, feels like mint, and probably taste likes mint. anyhow it's way too late to start redoing everything, so have a taste... and I hope that you wont get sick of it too fast... :)

brainfreeze

well, I think my last cells in my brain just died. I've been writing an essay until 6.30 pm, and I've been in school(!!). right now I don't like that building especually. well, I'm gonna sleep in tomorrow that's for sure. :) just lay in bed until I really have to go up. nice. otherwise I've got Åre and snowboarding on my "happy-to-do-list" and hopes to see Jobe OF COURSE! :) love to you :) I'm soooo jelaous right now. one of my friends went to London TODAY, and my other friend is going in a couple of days (did you hear me, just a couple of days!! exciting! :) and I'm stucked in sweden only of hearing english on the bus. (that's a whole other story to tell) but I'll got my Åre, my teddy and not to forget mention, Model UN. fun! I'm acually unhealthy excited about a school project ;) well,well have your brain freezed....

school work it's just no end

this seems like there is no end of this story. nothing's put together and nothing is acually thought through. I've learnt my onehundredandtwelve lesson about planning. I havn't got a clue.


listening to third day- revelation. good musik in a bad world...

thinking about things

yesterday night at the time of 00.30 am I started to think deep. it's always by night you have your lifetime moments, don't you think. It's at that thime you think of lifechanging decitions and almost every decition is taken when you're in bed trying to get to sleep. I just thought about life, randomly, and a lot of thoughts went through my mind. I strucked by the thought that god always puts in an optimistical way of all my problems and he always pokes at my conscience and says "it could have been worse". and unfortunely he's always right. that ends up with the result that I can't be so depressed that I want to. I can't feel too sorry for my self cause there is alwas a lot of things in my life that I'm so happy about. God is such a depress-spoiler! haha and I, reluctantly, admit the facts.

rock on!

first rocka fett at Arenan, Falun. then spotlightnight at Elsborgskyrkan. my weekend has been filled with fun.sweat.music&cupcakes. what more can I possibly ask for? :) and later on, sunday night, the gospel café was the best in a very long time. I can only say, thank you god, it was awsome!





check it out! :)
spotlightnight.blogspot.com

and btw I've got my hair cut

it was
kind of a relief
kind of a disaster
kind of a fear moment
kind of a new experience
kind of a dream
kind of a nightmare
kind of one of the best things I've done so far (this two past weeks :)

tomorrow is an other day

I feel a little bit more real. I feel a little bit more awake. I feel a little bit more alive. I feel a little bit more sleepy.

oh, I dom't bhink so?

my mind has kind of been of those past days. not so much headache but a lot of caughing and I think I now can be called a "snotty-nosed kid". so right now I don't have so many brilliant thoughts about life or something very philosophical to say. I'm just hoping this illness will go away so my head can be free from this aching cotton wrapped brain a like to call mine. it can feel a little bit strange when you realize that the world always keeps on going even when you're not the central point in it. time goes by even though you feel like your whole body is wrapped in cotton and your biggest thought for the moment is how you can stay there and still be a part of time. your mind has a big conflict about how you should stay in your own bubble or join the rest of the world. for now I'm kind of stucked in between and it's a pain. I long for my bed, and in the same time I long for the everyday life when I'm NOT sick. oh, it's a mess and still you've got to keep on going. that's my philosophicial thought for today.

bye bye

I've got a new friend, my pillow is now not the only one I can share life with. the fever is gone, and so is my hair. a new day has begun and rest is now only a memory so sweet.

huh?

somewhere between the tissues, coughmedicine and blankets, coups of tea, fisherman's friend and movies, I realized that when you're sick you are aloud to be off the road. but eventually you'll find that stage kind of hopeless and prevent of social knowledge. you'll end up talking to your pillow like that was the most normal thing you would do and you'll probably have the most giving conversations that you've had for a long long time cause the fever has taken control of your body and all you can do is fighting back, in a very laidback, comfortable position of course. well, well, after a week in darkness, talking with my pillow and sharing the most important moments in life with bret and jamaine, murray and mel (and don't forget to mention the bongo-guy.) and of course tyra banks and her girls, joey and his friends, hiedi and her other spoiled friends. dr phil, xzibit and his freaking guys, finch and his just shoot me companions and that girl who I don't know the name of who showes wonderful houses in mid-france to retired couples and last but really not least michael scofield and his crazy stupid and the most clever, smart and awsome guys in prison break. well, I kind of hate you all and I'm ready to start my life again... right after the comersialbreak.