rest

well, now it's my fourth day just stay at home. and I must say I appreciate just to have some rest. just to feel lonliness with only company of Vilma and God. just to hear the silence and to know that you have one day wiht just as much work and stress that you will allow. it's a nice feeling. indeed.

photo: Hanna Sundin

oh my

hjälp! Jag vågade! :o)

still in my cloud

sitting here, believing that's it early in the morning still the time is 9.30 am. wish it would be though, with birdsong and small tiny drops of water on leaves. but sommer is not here yet, so I'll have to be pleased with spring. it's nice though. you always feel that it is a time of possibilities at spring. you have the whole summer free and you can dream about anything you would like. but for now, I wish the summer was here already. just for one day. so you could sit at the pier and have your feet into the water. just sit there watching the sun goes down. sharing the moment with someone you love or just have one minute or two for your self.

no I'll make a coup of tea, have some breakfast and keep on dreaming.
photo: Hanna Sundin

sleepy morning

well this is one good side of life :) just to have a whole day just for your self.

oh boy!

pic. from last seasons danceshow.
now I've just come home from the theatre where I've practicly lived this weekend. the dance show has been awsome! just like it use to be except for some bloopers ;) but anyway the main feeling is still wow! I'm now sooooo tired though the adrenaline still's flowing. can just agree with the T-shirt I'm wearing
(thank you Helena!! :) "I <3 Jazz", or DANCE!! :) best thing in life. nearly :)

well, tomorrow my free week's starting. *yey* but, I'll still have some homework. or alot :P but anyway, I will have time to just relax and put my self together. and keep up with my classes. have some unfinished work to do. *uups* anyhow, time for eveningmeal and then bed. sweet, sweet bed!! :)
see you and thank You God for this weekend. all glory to you :)

thursday

"I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind that I put down in words. How wonderful life is when you're in the world."

sunshine and yet a little bit cloudy. still joy in my heart.
but I also miss to spend time with you. although I know you are not
too far from me. well just a coup of thea and a laugh. love.
dream about the future. figure out God's plan. birdsong and picknick.
love. kisses on the cheek.
can life be better?

one more day to go

today it's wednesday. the day I thought it was the whole monday ^^ anyway. I realized that I'm not really used to have long lessons right after eachother. just had English for 2h and then french for 1h. and I'm exhausted!! haha. well time to go home. then ballet :)
see you!

time is a tricky figure

well, I hurried to school with the breath way behind me. and then when I run in to our group's room I was told that our lesson started half and hour later than I thought. I got a great start of the day. bikeing like I had fire in behind. ;) anyway, looking forward of this day. :) it feels nice to actually do so. so I'm thankful for that. yesterday I was at my cousins place. me-grandma-brother. we played football with them and it was really funny. they are a bunch of fun thous two! haha. :) and they are as sweet as sugar. :) well, it was a very nice afternoon and although I last a lot of energy (!) still I gained more. :)

no it's time for socialstudies.

see you around. :)

week is on again

well hello, time for school again. and I've not worked as much as I needed to at the easter-break. so I have to work a little bit harder to get back on track. :) anyway I biked to school today. and I think I overestimated my condition ;) but it was a nice bikeride. with sunshine and worship. very nice to start the day with some exercise and God-talk. :) I believe that my day is going to be a little bit better just because I gave a little bit more time to Him. and it was great. :)

I realized again, that you always need to work on your character. and again, it's not funny all the times. but I thought of this last night; when you are alone, you can choose not to see your flaws. But when you are two, you'll have someone who will see the flaws for you and love you for trying to make a change.

it's hard to let go and change if it's too comfortable to do not. but I hope that I'll have the guts to make a change in my life. maby slow, but still a change. :) and that was the wisdom of today.

safe back home

well we had a dull week in Sälen. only one day with sun. really ironic. ^^ but the last day we, dad-sis-Vilma-I, got a beautiful day up in the mountains. sunshine and just a breif wind. lovely! :) saturday went on Kupolen to do some shopping with J. very nice. later on we went for a run with sandra and now my legs are sore. in the evening I went to Ida's place and sandra-ida-I watched some movies and feed us selves with popcorn. nice :) today I went to church service. it was really touching and it was nice to feel that god was in this place. no I can face the week a little bit stronger. and also I realized that I really loves this church. thank you God. :) later on I went on a quick shopping-tour to buy a present for my dear Kajsa. I found this lovely scarf that I just had to buy her. and then I hurried back to her place. it was so good to catch up with you girls. you mean a lot to me! and I'm sad that we don't get to gether more often!! that fact needs to change! :) anyway grandma was on her way over so we got a nice coup of tea together and now after some chitchat she went back to my uncle's place. now I'm heading down to church with J to worship.

and also from now on I'm carrying a brad (spik?) in my bag. just to remind me of that God is my ground. and that I want, again, to take the decition about having Him in the center of my heart and life. :)
photo: Hanna Sundin

bye spring hello winter

I'm going up to Sälen for a week to go skiing with my family and Wikströms. :) fun!! :D so you won't get any new posts for a while. but I won't be gone too long though, just for a couple of days. and then I'll come home with googleburn and butt-ache. ;) but I hope that I'll dare the BIG JUMP!!! :o haha... but I'm kind of nervous ;)

lazy easter

nice to have some relax-time. finally. although we don't do that much in school. Erik in class said once that schoolbreakes is just like Falufri eccept that it doesn't serves free food every lunch-hour. :o)

anyway, today I've been to Kupolen with, mum+sis+bro and shopped some presents for the big April-birthdayparty. all our relatives have their birthdays in April ^^ we also bought new phones for us all. kind of nice and really cheap. we got a good deal I would say :) so no I'm almost as hip as anybody else ;) but I realized after I droped my new phone on the ground, that the old one was much more sustainable or lasting. scratches went right on! well, excuse me for the terrible English but I had a lot of candy today so I'm kind of in a sugarrush. (haha almost wrote "suckerrush" and that would be very bad!! xo)) anyhow. time for some more relaxing. we're about to watch the movie "the wedding date", we'll se what it is about.

well, I had actually a good day and I'm very happy to have spent some time today with my grandma, uncle, sweet cousins and of course that my aunt was able to be with us!! :) that was the best part in my easter egg.

so, Happy Easter to you all. don't eat too much candy though ;)

hello and welcome

back my dear sun! :) but I have to spend most of the day inside cleaning. but I hope I can visit you later. :)

well all we talk about is...

just read a text from a blog. I quote;

"Egentligen har jag inget emot påsken, men däremot har jag något emot vad påsken har blivit. Vad vi har gjort med den och julen. Eftersom det är väldigt många i vårt land som inte är troende eller utövar sin tro tycker jag någonstans att det är fel att påsken och julen är helgdagar. Förstå mig inte fel, jag uppskattar ledigheten lika mycket som alla andra gör, men jag tycker att det är ett hyckleri att bara utöva kristendomen när man har någon vinning utav det." ;end of quote.

well, I thought that it's much truth in it, sure, but still it's also kind of sad. A girl in my class asked me a couple days ago if I celebrate- and if we had something special on Easter. it was not very hard for me to answer, really. it was a simple no. that kind of no I wish I didn't have to give her. I mean, we do celebrate easter. we have meetings in church and we eat lots of food and we have chickens and eggs all the colours of the rainbow just like everyone else does. but still I feel like no was the wrong answer on the question.

I'm kind of angry that, well I know that not everyone is but still, all sweeds and sweden as a country are so lame. haha, I'm so nationalistic! but isn't there a truth in it? I mean, the main norm in Sweden is that everything should be so natural. everything from your apperence til your way of thinking. and also I believe our culture. Sweden is a lame country "culturelly". some of us don't even know why we celebrate easter and then sweden has celebrated it for a very long period of time.

so, when she asked, I would like to have a much better answer. I told her though about the dinner and the meetings and about my dad reads from the scripture. but still Easter is no longer special to us. I hope that this Easter will be more special to me. so next time I can say, YES. because I know that easter is one of the most important days in my life. Jesus died for me that day and changed history and then he rose and changed history and most important my life and everybody else's lives. Now I want to change history.

all I can see is a rainy day....

where did my spring go?
well, two friends and one umbrella.
bad pancakes and looong lessons.
untied shoes and curly hair.
still it's a little bit of hope left.
but april is a kind of it's own we decided.

Perfect

"We'll love you just the way you are
If you're perfect"

listen to Alanis Morissette's song Perfect.
just sad and true.
feels good to know that God loves me tremendously.
thank you.

today

watching friends with sis after a nice danceclass with the kids.
love when spring is knocking on the door and that summer's not too far away.
well even though somethings are though life is still a joy.
tomorrow I'll apply for some more summer jobs and later have jof. then it's cupcake baking with Patricia for "House". now, it's almost time for bed. but just almost. :)

yes, dear

-Mr Bradford, is not this weather delightful!
-Yes, it is splendid indeed! He replied Miss Durham and they continued their walk in the beautiful park full with spring flowers.

God is an awsome God he reigns...

...from heaven above with wisdom, pow'r and love
our God is an awesome God!

this week has been very god-present in a faraway perspective. this week has been a close to home but still some where almost abroad. This week has been happy and all that is missed now is a nice coup of coffe at the café in town when the spring birds sings and good company is needed. Indeed the feeling of happily ever after is around but not to close though. 'cause we all know that the story doesn't end tomorrow. after a very nice work out at he dance studio I'm home safe and are just about to take a shower, eat evening meal and go to a nice comfortable bed. knowing that tomorrow is going to be great. to read the bible every night has given me streanght to get up in the mornings and actually I've come more closer to god. a deeper relationship that I am so priviledge to have the opportunity to take part in. all my love to Him. Trying to give Him the glory. Trying to just smile and know that He is always around.

fool you!!

well, today is the day when you are aloud to not tell the truth and fool everybody who are nearby :) and as nice and sweet as I am I didn't fool anyone. kind of boring I think though, but I don't have that much imagination in that area. anyway it's april first and the weather was soooo nice!! :) and I was happy ever after when I could walk home from dance class today. well I was freakin cold when I finally arrived home but that is something we should not mention ;) still there was very nice to be able to walk slowly in the light, not too cold, spring evening who smelled like mud and snow, but the small creek made me happy again. it was "porlande" :) now it's certainly time for bed, I've got a big day tomorrow. we're going to finally take the supervisor/coach-class so I'll be able to get my drivers license :) or at least be a legal practiser on the roads. so I think you should watch twice next time you walk across the road because I'll see you there :)
godnight sleep tight... it rimes...the pic. is totally my future car!! ;)