are we humans or are we dancers?

well, I think I'm more of a dancer than a human. it's hard to believe how much dancing can help my brain to function. now, I need to sit down and learn how my body functions. cause I've got a test tomorrow. it's kind of boring but ok I think. anyway, I need to see a film to night too. for English class. they told me the film was great, amazing, touching, hard to watch, well done and bad filmed. haha, I think it was mixed but the amount was probably that the film was worth watching. I hope so. the film's named "Freedom writers" and I think it's just the movie perfect for this night. a film with a thought behind, well done and with great actors. but I havn't seen it yet so it will be fun to find out.

and I thought.....

well, I thought it felt good. and it did. yesterday. ^^ now things are a little bit overwealming. but it's ok. what's not ok though is this weather. I don't like it. good news though is that I can return my shoes to the shop and get a new pair. a pair that not leaks in water in every step. kind of happy :)

"at least they are polite enough to knock"

well, I think I had a nice conversation with some of my problems this weekend. and they seem to understand as much as they wont come back for at least some time. feels good. I took the day off today and kind of gathered some streanght for this week. feels good. now I can, hopefully, have a nice day tomorrow too. feels good. and now I know a little bit better how to have faith in God. feels a little bit more than good. well,well time's up and I need to go to sleep. feels nice :)

week is ending

and I feel a little bit more cheer up. :) this week has accually been a little better than I thought it would be. but still, it hasn't been the best. well, now I'm sitting in school working on my resolution to the Model UN and listens to norah jones. feeling kind of happy and excited about life.... but just a bit.. ^^ but still, the day is a little more sunny than yesterday! :)

wednesday

well today things are a little bit better.. but still I feel blue. ^^ I think I've started to get a cold, and that's not a positive thing. plus I've got tons of school work to finish and time's starting to get no time. but today it's ballet and then "house" so I've got two things I really like and look forward to. and then I've got my first English lesson today, so I hope this day will be a little more bright than it seems to appear. :) if it's not I hope God will carry me anyway. but it's hard to keep it up when you're tired and your eyes are not too far away from tears. when problems seems to just knock on your door when you don't want them to. well, I would like to crawl up at my father's lap and just stay there for a while, resting and gathering streanght to face the world a little more optimistical than now.

winter wonderland

"I would like to go away for a while, just to some place where I can take a break from my ordinary life."
I'm tired, I think I have a cold and I have enormous bunch of school work I have to finish until friday. not in my best mood. but I hope it will pass. still my body feels like a big big rock. ^^ I would like something happy to cheer me up. that would be nice. :) but for now I just have to keep on going... and just dream my self away for a minute or two.. :)

school is on again...

and it's kind of not amusing.... but we're starting with Model UN this week. kind of exciting! :) but otherwise I'm just longing to get home and go to bed. The weather is as grey as my mind this not very sunny morning of march.