the backside of being an artist

why do you have to go up from bed, have breakfast, go to work?
why can't you have sunshine, a day off and a nice cup of tea with a friend?
so much time just fly away, and I'm still here with two feet on the ground. still I want it to keep on ticking. cause I don't want to be standing here for much longer.
just a couple of weeks left. then it's over and lovely fall starts.

sentimental dreaming

I'm sitting here at work with nothing more to do than watch a movie. The movie is about love, friendship and glamour. lots of glamour. the kind of film that make you want to dream yourself away. into a fantasy land beyond reality. where you can write the story and poke at anything and it will become true. where you are happy ever after and have everything you desires for. comparing with your own life, everything seems so grey and dull, left out from the magic. you want to be somewhere else, need to be somewhere else and because of that feeling you disappear in to a world full of sentimentality. in that world you loose your own life, just for a while. it's kind of scary how deep a film can affect your emotions. then the only thing you can do is to shake off that sentimentality while watching the credits titels and think that your life not really suck. that all you wish for might not be in that movie, in the life the charachters are living, but in reality. in your own life, that your dreams should be in it instead of out of it. to remember that after the show is over, the spotlights turns off and the cast goes home.

I press the button and the dvd opens. I change the film into another one and press play. as long as reality waits for me outside, I can wait for it inside.

Dancin' in the moonlight

feels great to be exhausted and all swetty again! dance your butt of and just enjoy the music. be focused and coreograph. laugh and play. being silly. cause it's all about dancing. it's all about joy.

my comfort

"I'm running fast and free to you, 'cause you are my home where I wanna be."

when everything else seem to hard, you God are my only comfort. you're the only one who don't change. you are my home.

trust and undeserved love

God, I have one request.
one wish. one pray.
use me as you desire.
help me achive to do your will.
show me how you want me to act.
how to express. what to say.
help me to care for others with your way of love.
to bring your way of thinking in to my life and to others.
to serve in your kingdom. through your love.
please, let my voice reach up to you.

in humbleness and trust.

can't a girl dream?

kiddoz

well, I've been tested this week. my patient has been way tested. that's how it is to work with kids. never a cool moment. their puppy eyes don't get to me now... I've got immunity that's for sure. ;) because of this, I don't have the energy to write anything more. so, bye.